I hardly did anything this weekend. On Sat, I went to bed at 4am and woke up at 4pm! Straight away get ready for dinner with Jeffery and his family. Jeffery parents, uncle and cousin are visiting him in Beijing. We all went out for Peking roast duck at Xiang Man Lou (香满楼). The roast duck here is good – I find it better than the famous Quan Ju De (全聚德) – at least the price is lower. Hehe…

There are seven of us (plus a baby – eight): Jeffery, wife and baby, his parents, his uncle, his young cousin sister and me. Apart from the roast duck, the other dishes are fairly pricy. As a whole the dinner was good!

I was planning to go clubbing later that night but I had slight headache towards late evening so decided to be good girl and stay home. Why headache? Too hot lor (and maybe sleep too much)!

On Sun, Leo called me at 10am asking me if I want to play badminton. Gosh, I went to bed at 6am!!! You expect me to wake up at 10am??? No way!!! I went back to slept and at 12-ish, Jeffery’s call woke me. He asked me to go up for lunch.

After lunch I spent almost the whole afternoon at his house – on one hand playing with the baby, on the other amending contracts with Jeffery. We were changing the auditors’ and lawyers’ engagement contracts. You just can’t believe how badly these contracts were drafted. We practically changed the whole thing!

By the time we finished, it was 5-ish. I came back. Surf Net for a short while, at the same time exchanging text messages my little “god-brother”. He asked me to check if he is accepted in the University he enrolled. Yeah he got into Qingdao Technology University (not sure if I translated it correctly… hehe don’t care lar). I only know him for a very short period, but I find him a very good boy. He has been helping his parents in the farm almost everyday in such hot weather. He woke up at 7am in the morning everyday. He even gave me morning call one day to make sure I not overslept! He always said that I am wasting resources in Beijing – I am in Beijing but I never bother to go out. He said if he is here, he will sure be out everyday visiting the Olympic stadium, the swimming stadium and other places in Beijing. He sounds very excited about life and new things. I am glad to know a little brother like him.

At 7pm, I went back to Jeffery’s house for dinner! Hehe… what a good neighbour I have!!!

In the evening, I went out with a friend I met online. He is a reporter. The first time I chat with him online, we practically argued through out! In the next few chats, we were not too “friendly” either. Our chats are more like forum where both of us discussed about serious topics. This may be due to the different culture and background, we find that there are lots to discuss and exchange. This evening, we finally meet! I have better impression on the “real” he than the one online – at least he is friendlier. We went to San Li Tun (street with lots of pubs) for drinks. We talked about serious topics again – the Cultural Revolution, Chinese politics, Malaysia history, culture and economy etc!!! Just can’t believe we discussed things like this in a pub. Boring topics but in an interesting environment!

After a couple of drinks, we then went to the pub that I always go. I wanted to dance but it’s a bit too empty tonight – it’s a Sunday night, what to expect??!! So I didn’t really dance because the mood is not there. Besides he does not seem to fit in. We stayed there for just couples of songs than we decided to go home. He is a gentleman. He paid for the drinks and he sent me home (taking cab lar – not exactly the same route though).

I don’t think I need people to treat me like this every time I go out. If I ever go out with him again, I would like to take the bills.

By the time I got home, it’s around 1-2am. Tomorrow will be a busy and stressful day for me! The week has not started and I am already looking forward to the next weekend! What a good work attitude!!! Hahaha…..

An old friend asked me since when I started writing. He said I must be very lonely and boring here that’s why I started to do things that I don’t previously do.

Lonely and boring, yes and no! Yes, because I used to have few very good friends in London where we did lots of thing together. Life there was colourful and lots of funs. Now I am here by myself. No, because I am always busy here and hardly have chance to feel lonely and boring. I have been travelling for work so much that, if I ever have time, I would prefer to stay home and sleep. Lifestyle here is definitely different from what I used to have but cannot compare. So there are no such things as to which are better than the other.

I started to write when I travelled to London about 4 years ago. At the beginning I was writing to YC, ML, LL and friends back home. I get supports and courage from them. Writing to friends made me felt that I was not alone. I was depressed when I first arrived in London because no money, no proper place to stay, no work…But I have to say I was lucky because there was always someone there to help me to pull through the difficult times. I also have Amanda there to give me strength and support!

When I first came to China, I wrote even more. I wrote to my London roommate almost everyday! This lasted for nearly a year. Then both of us get very busy with our own lives and our emails get lesser and lesser. But we still write or chat on msn.

I write because I am sharing my life with people I love, and those who love me, those who are interested in finding out what happen to me in this new land. I used to write directly to very few people. But I know that there are more family and friends out there who love and care for me. So I want to make them part of my life. I want to share with them my little stories that I encountered everyday and tell them I am fine here…

Today I went to see a porcelain producer in Chongqing. Spent one whole day there going through the basic financial information. At the end of the day, we were unable to come to an agreement on the company valuation (the price) hence the term sheet is not signed.

Yesterday, I stayed up till 6am – hehe… surf net and watch TV. Only had one hour sleep! Surprisingly I was able to pull through the day together with the dull financial records! Lunch time was time worst time – it was a long lunch with everyone “bullshitting”. I was struggling to stay awake!

Tomorrow is an early day for me. I am catching the 8:25am flight back to Beijing. Have to leave the hotel at 6:30am! Gosh!!!

Did not have a chance to visit Chongqing :(

I am in Chongqing now. Arrived here around 10:30pm. Today the flight was on time! Surprisingly I did not sleep in the plane – I used to dose off even before take off! I was reading the newspaper. For the first time I flipped through every page! Oh, I read about Tony Leong and Carina Lau married in Bhutan. I wish them 白头偕老。

Had Ajitsan Ramen at the airport. It has been such a long time since I last eaten Ajitsan Ramen. Emm… that was went I was working in Singapore. Used to have it so often when I was auditing Far East group of companies in Orchard Road area. Today, the environment is different, the mood is different and the taste is also different. And of course, I am different – much older… and wiser??? Haha…

I’ve been to Chongqing 8 years ago. It was in 2000. I was backpacking in the Southwest of China with my dad. We spent half day in Chongqing – just came here to catch the boat for the Three Gorges tour. I hardly had any impression – only remember Chongqing is very hilly, badly polluted and extremely crowded. It was drizzling and foggy when we were here 8 years ago.

This time, I still have not had the chance to see Chongqing yet. Travelled straight from airport to hotel. Can’t see much in the dark. But I noticed the nightlife here is flourishing. Neon lights are everywhere. Also, there are lots of state of the art bridges and roads. This is definitely a modern and well developed city. Let’s see how it looks like during day time!

Today, do not know what's wrong with me. I vomited at least 3 times since lunch. It came without any warnings. I was absolutely normal in the morning and even during and after lunch. I did take breakfast this morning - bread – very normal. Today I am not working empty stomach...

I had lunch with client and Deloitte UK staff. There are 8 of us. All of them seem alright. It's only me that was vomiting after lunch. I was working in office as usual and at around 2-3pm, suddenly I felt like stomach was filled with air and food was being pushed out from my stomach.

I went to the toilet and throw up all the food I eat during lunch – luckily I didn’t eat a lot today. I still felt strong and health after I that. I went back to work and had a cup of water. Few minutes later, I vomited again. This time it’s only water that came out.

After the 2^nd vomit, I dare not drink too much water – just very little to clear my throat.  Around 4pm, I throw up again! Just water! So I decided to go home. The driver picked me up and I felt weak and tire in the car. On the way home, I felt sick again! Luckily didn’t throw up in the car. Got home 6-ish and the 4^th time I vomited. This time nothing came up and I felt awful!

After that my stomach was very empty and I felt very uncomfortable. So I cooked some porridge. While waiting for it to cook, I started to feel semi-unconscious – struggled to keep myself awake, had some porridge and dose off on the sofa with TV on.

When I woke up again, it was 8-ish. Had some more food and just sat in front of the TV whole night.

Now, I am feeling much better.

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This afternoon when I told Leo I was vomiting but I felt strong and healthy – no headache, no upset stomach, not tire, not ill… he told me that was sign of pregnancy! Haha!!!

Told him I know what I had and had not done so I am not worried! He said I might get pregnant by exchanging text messages via phone. Mental/ emotional pregnancy??? Lol…

This started because, on Sunday, I told Leo and Jeff that I was exchanging sexually arousing texts with someone I met in a club. Did that just for fun! Afterall he is not in Beijing and I don’t think we will meet again. Just two “wu liao ren” have nothing better to do at nights. Hai… what have I been doing??? Life here must be too stressful and boring!!!

I need to change! I need to talk! Please give the strength and opportunity! Again, I don’t see any chance to talk this week – too busy with work. I’m going to Chongqing tomorrow. Emm… better go to bed now!